gee. thanks a lot syafiq. and now im hooked up at YOUR favourite word. SLENGER. and kakak's been complaining that i use too much of that word and it is getting on her freaking nerves. GRAHH. im gonna get you, syafiq! but ohwells. forget it. cause whenever i see ure pathetic and oh-please-have-mercy-on-me face, i have that sudden feeling that i should shower a teeny weeny bit of sympathy to slenger syafiq who spreaded his addiction of using his quality to me.
the science paper today wasnt that hard. as compared to yesterdae's paper. i ate my heart out after the geog paper yesterdae and that was why i went home straight and leaving you ghurls with your fun that you want to have. sorry to bother and affect you ghurls. okay, i'll change. even if it means .... nah, nvm. wont want to say it.
grahh. i dont like this at all. im undergoing aftereffects of depression even though i din even experience depression. i have to change. I HAVE TO CHANGE. I MUST MAKE MYSELF HAPPY. I MUST MAKE OTHERS HAPPY. I MUST SMILE ALWAYS AND I CANNOT BE ALONE KEEPING QUIET. I MUST MIX AROUND. I MUST! I MUST! gee. i sound as if i am an anti-social.
i fear big big BIG groups of people who comes approaching me. or surrounding me. i used to think that i was just scared of those ppl who i label mats and minahs who come together in big grps. i would take a longer route just to avoid them. but one fine day, one BIG HUGE group of the sec 2 guys in my school were approaching me. grahhh. i panicked like hell. and pretended to be using my hp. but then i wasnt able to escape lah. one of them jokingly asked for number. lalala. who cares. i just kept quiet. i used syaf's tactic. she pretends to talk on the phone when she's embarrased of her crushes when they are around her. kaka. lawak lah tu budak. anyway, the story abt the sec 2 boys happened not so recently. just feel like telling it here.
as i walked down the big canal, so many things came to mind. what will happen if it was raining heavily and i drowned inside that big canal? nobody is able to save me then i guess. *sobs.
today is our 1 month anniversary. grahhh. ima and the others say i should not have tied the string on sept 11. eerie date they say. but ohwells. CINTA GERHANA TAK AKAN PADAM WALAU APA PUN. haha. berbahasa lak aku. meeting up tomorrow instead. but the weird thing is that im looking forward to other things more than the meet-up. grahhh. ohwells. i know im gonna love it no matter what.
-the ring looks so fine especially when your name is on it.
i hate to admit this, but i get very jealous seeing them so happy together without __. ohwells. forget it. smile suriyani. SMILE.
MAYBE, just a maybe, i'll blogg lata in the nite.
