i have turned into a serious character at home. i hardly smile. neither laugh. well, if i did so. it was done alone in a room. i scold myself and give a you-are-pissing-me-off look to my sisters at home. my parents give me that stern look whenever i try to look back and look at them. and sometimes i often have the urge to burst into tears thinking how bad the situation is and how bad i wanna change it.
sighs. is this even home to me?
now, i drown myself endlessly doing my friggin homeworks. and doing paper-filing. clearing up avri single rubbish i find in my beloved torn and tattered file. getting shot down by avri single hurtful words the people in the house might say. afraid to pick up the phone and cry out to anyone. i tried looking for my dear friends who were always there to hold me up there. but too bad. they were all too busy to bother about me. sighs.
conversation with kuku bestfren was short.
ndp this year SUNGGUH TIDAK happening.
one thing, i was happy about was that. im super prolly friends with hafiz. we used to bicker ALOT in the past. he even hated me once. in primary skool. all because of rumours about him liking me. so he got fustrated and owaes find faults with me. cikgu even got the nerves to always put him together with me during projects. and till just now. he cried out avriting to me. abt all the rumours he had to hear. about him liking 5 ghurls at the same time. he onli lyk one. the mgs gurl. and i talked to him gently. despite all those vulgar he shot me with. till he finally said i am a trustworthy friend. -smiles. that is all i wanted ever. he's not soo bad afterall. =D.
i wanna get a new image. lol. your suggestions are always welcomed. =)
