i DONT WANT !!!!
shit. i dunnoe wat the hell is rong with me.
am i insane or simply retarded?
i'm trying to changee here. bein a NEW-suriyani.
but i seem to be SUFFERING?
i DONT WANT !!
am i sum kind of a f***ed-up slut who likes to please people?
i dunnoe, lyssyah.
like wat you told me, i should tell you if i'm not o-kayy bein the NEW-me.
but i DONT WANT !!!
i dont want to tell anibodi.
i dont want to be labelled as ATTENTION-SEEKER again !
i dont want to repeat the stoopid freaking past.
i hate my past.
lyk how i hate myself NOW.
how i wish nobodi would see this entry.
i relleh nid to let it out.
i'm going nuts+almonds!
i feel so inferior to those fake models in shops like THIS FASHION and OG.
those FAKE models made from wateva crap.
they got those nicely shaped boobs and those oh-so-NICE butts !!
relleh. i'm nuts.
feeling inferior to stoopid man-made non-living things?
suriyani, ure getting more stoopid den i thot you cud be.
andd andd, i feel VERY inferior to supernana.
she's got a SEXY BOD.
esp wen i saw her trying out dat shoulder-on shirt.
arghhh-ism.
what i picture in my mind now is dat i'm juz a BLACK SHEEP.
baaa.
avribodi ard me is so GEORGOUS.
andd. obviously, i'm the opposite.
i wanna break down.
relleh. sumtimes i wonder.
but i DONT WANT !!!!!!!!
ima is pretty. so is SYAF, MIRAH, SHAZ, LYSSYAH.
*crying*. i dont want this at all.
how i wish i could ask ms ong ritee now whether i cud cover my face with sumting lyk the talibans and wear baggy clothes to school.
i dont want to show ppl i'm a fugly, ugly-looking, fat bitch.
*crying*. i nid time-out.
-cryingggg-. i cant help it.
