with this poem, it speaks a thousand in me. if euu guys out dere are SMART, euu will relleh noe how i relleh feel.
i wish sometimes that i could be less loathed
maybe not push everyone away.
it makes me cringe beneath my clothes
when i find that even those who should be my friends dont want to see me today.
somtimes i even wish i could remember how it feels
to have close friends to depend on.
but i know these dreams wont ever be real
everything that should be right in my life goes rong.
how do i keep going strong?
i could force myself to smile and face it
pretend that im ok.
but no matter how hard i try to erase it
this heartbroken face wont ever go away!
cuz thats how i feel inside
and i try too hard not to recall all those times ive cried.
and when i feel like crying my tears are pure rage
full of absolute hate and perfect anger
now like these words they fall to this page
drowning out my smile.
its so intense that i shut my eyes to fade away
just to erase this loneliness for one more day
and wish they would go away.
but they wont stop haunting me
torturing, they make me see
how once, it felt comforting... to be loved.
all of euu out dere are INHUMAN! euu never spared a thought of how i would feel. euu never cared much less love me. now, FUCK OFF. ALL of euu. once again. FUCK OFF.
raging.
