sad to sae. i jus dun haf the freaking mood to write aniting for todae. i'm jus too fucked up. understand the meaning of FUCKED UP?
i feel worthless.
i feel as if i haf no value of my own.
i feel as if i stand nowhere in this world.
i feel as if nobodi lurves me.
i feel as if nobodi understands me.
i'm derangED. my heart bleeds wen i see other ppl living life happily without a companion by their side. why izzit dat other ppl can SMILE, LAUGH happily without having a companion? why am i jus different? i'm a girl. i'm a girl hu seriously nids a companion by her side. to back her up. to lend her a shoulder and a pair of ears wenever she nids it. to gif her hugs and kisses avri nite before going to slip. to help her dissolve all her troubles. why does it seemed all so hard? help.
i'm down. down to e coree. down in the dumps. and so are sum of my mates. wells. cheer up peeps. life isn't a bed of roses lyk wat u tink. it has its own thorns. let go of the freaking past and live life jus as it is. u cant expect avriting to go ure wae. but take it positively. SHUX LA. aren't i jus STOOPID? shudn't i oso use dis for my own use?
niwae. thanx a lot hu tried to pick me up. syaf. ima. haass. josie. though i mite not be doin so well now. i greatly appreciated u guys. ure jus de bez and i lurve u guyz. *hugs and kisses* haass. take it ez ok? avriting's gonna be fine. juz let it go. get on wif life lyk how u used to. aight?
whoah. i wrote alot. cant believe it. but dis is juz part of wat is on my mind. i want to let it out. but nemind. i realli hope things wud be betta soon. BETTA den how it is now. =((
