KUKU!
i miss this blog. our blog. our kuku-est blog.
i miss the times we crapped our asses off.
i miss the times i cried and came to you.
i miss husniee.
i guess its true huh? people change when environment change. and relationships tend to either drift apart or draw closer. like ours. drifting apart. but im sure it wasnt on purpose. i understand ure busy with ure JC life. but sigh. what can i do? i can only afford to read back all the past entries, think back all the times we had together and just yeah. i miss those times alot.
and i feel utterly helpless when ure all fucked up, and i cant do anything about it. sigh.
i wish to see you soon face-to-face. cause i miss seeing the kuku, pretty face of yours. >.<
but who am i? my wishes cant be fulfilled all the time. right?
ohwells. i already wrote a post fo you.
i miss you a hell lot.
=(
dada dear. <3
so much for a post yea? bet ur slping right now. oh well. i'm making a post now. to cheer myself up.
you go husni. -_-"
Friday, November 18, 2005
its bored reading your own posts isnt it? esp if its EVERYDAY. so i shall come to the rescue. and let YOU read MY post. heh.
so life's a dog. life's a bitch. just wondered how people came up with such expressions. if they give a one million dollar answer, i will very well take off my hat to them. *sheesh. tell me if im writing crap.
and sighs. its a sad thing seeing UNEXPECTED people having depression. gagaga.
shake your thang, shake your thang, your thang. shake your thang, shake your thang, your thang. shake your thang, shake you thang, your thang. AND NOW YOU GO BANG BANG!
hee.
im made with royal vintage fresh chocolate squeezed from some kinky MOOOO. heh.
there you go, husnieeeee. A POST FROM ME TO YOU! <3
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
man. sorry for the earlier entry. wasnt feeling so good last nite. i mean, hey, was trying to destress when yaniee came online. and then that com of mine had to disconnect. and only coming back online when yaniee's off. sheesh.
A maths wasnt so bad today. but it wasnt that smooth either. could do every qn, but just kinda slow. i guess its just me... still not recovered from the killer paper margaret set for prelims. =/
oh wells, cant think straight for now. freaking headache is starting to kill me. until next time then.
Monday, November 14, 2005
wheeeeeee! i feel fucking shitty tonite! YEAH! yeah rite. sheesh. lame day i had. well, not the whole day. well, yeah, the WHOLE fucking day. just pissed. at stuffs. paranoia creeping all over me lately. paranoid about the Os. paranoid about other stuffs too. i wonder when this "paranoia" is gonna kill me. hope it does one day. fucking hope it does. then i'll break from within. and implode. boom. fucking com pissed me off too. was online. then yani came online. then had a fucking 5 (or 10?) min chat. then poof. fucking com went disconnected. and reconnects after 30 fucking mins! wow! sheesh. man. i do feel shitty. come to tink of it, nice language i used. but who cares? i dont. im sure yani doesnt too. who cares about anything when u're having lovely days one after another? hell, i wouldnt if i were having those. the thing is, i DONT. fucking paranoia's filling my every second. and this blog's the first to noe. that this "paranoia" is getting to me. getting worse with every day, getting worse with every word i type here. i had thought that email i sent to my best friend i had would help. it did actually. only for a few days. 2 weeks i think. and now that fucking "paranoia" is getting back at me. i'm so gonna die if this keeps up.
Sunday, November 13, 2005
hey ya! lol. im online now... lol. for a while. haha. well. actually not a while la. haha. cause ive been online since... 7pm! wahhaha.
O lvls bore me la... cannot attract it to me too. lol. =P
so yeah, i was bored. and changed the skin again. heh. this is wayyy nicer to me. what do YOU tink kuku? lol. hope u like it. =)
Monday, November 07, 2005
HELLO EVERYONE! gagaga. stupid me lah. only two people knows about this blog. ME and HUSNIEEE. so it should be HELLO HUSNIEEE! =)
so hello. haven been updating. im so friggin sorrryyy. always had to bother husniee to make this blog alive. and i shall be the host for the coming 2 weeks since husniee wont be coming online for that period of time. so yeah.
dont worry husniee. its not only you who's sick. im oso sick. *sobs. get well soon, kuku. that is if ure reading this while ure still sick. but if u come online after 2 weeks, then i SUPPOSE ure well by then.
*i miss you lots man.
Sunday, November 06, 2005
wooo... been sick all weekend... lol. on sat morn, it was full of vomits man... my luck i guess. haha. all thanks to the slurpee i had the friday night before. lol. so yeah... note to self: no slurpees anymore. =/
cant come online that much on the next 2 weeks. more like cant come online at all. Os are on those weeks. haiz. hope i get my flow. so i can be on fire when im taking the exams. heh.
oh well, gotta go back to my books.
heh, cant wait for all this to be over. =)
Thursday, November 03, 2005
wOOt! whee! yAy! i made the headings orange! ORANGE!
\\(^^,)\(^^,)/\(^^,)// heh. at last. i'm so happy. =) heh. i love this.
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
guess what? i'm a BETTER samaritan. =) i made more entries then u bebeh! hahaha. but yeah, we're both good samaritans. =) *i'm not sure how u spell samaritans though...*
lol. its only like... 10 more mins to hari raya. =) i feel like a kid again. lol. i WANT to feel like a kid again. heh. i guess everything in my life is the nicest things that happened to me. =) or maybe, i'm just looking at the bright side of life. you should too yaniee. that way, we'll all be happy people. \(^^,)/ yAy!
and yeah, ur welcum. =) but about something arriving... err... -crosses fingers. i'm hoping its not those abus... cause i told you i only take those from the roads. X)
yeah, i guess sayer pun harus memohon maaf kepada adik yaniee seandainye sayer di sini TERkasar bahase, TERsilap bicare, TERmarah yang tak tentu pasal, TERtanye hal tak tentu hala, TERsasul yang tak sengaje, TERmoddy tak semenamena dan TERmacammacam lagi yang mengena. and from there... Sir Lump Mud Hurry Rare Year. Dairy Hearty Young Eek Class. XD *as for me, about those bullying... heh. its.. well.. on purpose. LOL*
i shall be a GOOD SAMARITAN and blogg here. heh. well, dont say that lah. it is my duty to keep this blog alive like what my best partner, husniee, has been doing. so together we are the GOOD SAMARITANS! gagaga.
time flies fast huh? its already the last day of the fasting month. and the year is almost coming to and end. many things happened and one of the best things that has happened to ME in MY life is husnie. :)
thanks husnie. you made a difference in my life. totally. im not joking here. gahh. just wait for sumting to arrive aight. you'll see something touching and amazing. :)
sempena hari raya yang akan menjelang dalam 1 hari lagi, saya di sini ingin memohon ampun dan maaf jika saya pernah membuat silap atau terkasar bahasa sehingga membuat awak tersinggung. dengan itu, saya ingin mengucapkan SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN. *sobs. i know i have done alot of wrongs towards you. im relleh sorry. all those bullying moments. tak sengaje tau.. heh.
TATA. hee.
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
wow, i just realised one thing. come to think of it, this happens nearly everytime, but only that i dont really take notice of it.
i was waiting for you.
dang. oh wells, its kinda late already. need to go to sch tmr. to do some revision. home doesnt seem like a nice place to revise ur stuffs. im off then.
heyyyy lookie here. and there. and here. and HERE! lol. basically the whole blog la. im so proud of myself. =) three cheers for husni! hip hip hurey! X3 LOL. malas nak type ah. haha. cool thing that i could change the background and stuffs. but haiyer.. too bad i cant change the fonts and colour of the fonts. if not everything orange liao. haha.
oh wells im going to slp liao. cannot tahan ah. haha. i'll continue with the buttons when i have time or sumthing...
"i'm off," said the madman.
hey yaniee, im trying some stuffs for our blog. try not to edit anything. if ur good enuf, u can spot a little changes here and there. like the intro and the right-click thingy. =) so dont edit anything yeah?
maybe jus help me get pictures showing 2 best friends. =)
"Thanks", said the madman.
HELLOOOO!.
my motive is to break the chain of entries made by husnieeeee with this WONDERFUL entry of mine. =)
lol, sucky day ended sucky way. haha. guess i cant hide forever from it. oh wells. wonder what awaits me tomorrow.
BOO-YA-KAA! lol that's hello in shai the chubby's language. =)
been helping me mum with spring cleaning todae. im such a good boy. =) heh. and now im damned bored. cause nothing to do lar... need to study for the freaking Os, but malas giler ah. membosankan u noe? lol.
i wonder what yaniee's doing todae... or now perhaps. she's not online... hmmm... maybe buat kuih. haha. lets just hope she doesnt send me those abu that she collects while cleaning her house... craziee girl... nak hantar abu kat aku... nak buat ape sey...
oh wells, im gonna play game or sumthing...
"i'm off", said the madman.
lalalalala. that's 5 posts for me already. wahahaha.
lol, this one's just to ensure that i have had 5 posts consecutively. heh.
woooo... bad start today. haha. shouldnt have slept this morning after my prayers. sheesh. missed a lot of opportunities to do certain things. and now i feel bad. wonder what the day will bring me later.
a new blog. supposedly. wonder whos gonna read this one in the future. maybe just husni and yani. or maybe just husni. or just yani. heck. i wonder when's my next extry gonna be. i wonder what it'll be about.
yani's supposed to reedit this blog. as in the introduction stuffs. like the "about" and "skin" i guess. so maybe that's why she isnt blogging yet.
damn... now i feel as if i'm blogging for myself to read. heck. maybe i AM blogging for myself to read. wtf... heck. i'll go learn how to create a blog myself man... and then i'll go learn how to create a skin. don't really like using people's skins. they have their name on it. hmmm, then after all that, maybe i'll go create a blog for myself. heh. maybe then it'll be just for ME to read. yeah.... that's not so bad. but hey, yani, dont worry, i'll keep putting entries in this blog too. =) cause i feel its nicer if i could write more stuffs.
damnit man, i should have started blogging sooner. it feels kinda nice. like you just let your thoughts out. haha. oh yeah... maybe i'll have a blog once my O's finish. darn. lol. i gotta learn HOW to get one first. haha.
haha, this entry isnt that bad... its kinda long too. =) didnt expect it to be much cause the day wasnt so nice to begin with. lol. heck. i feel slightly better already. this is wayyy better than telling people what i feel.
wait. no. hell no. telling certain people what i feel is better. cause at that point of time you know whether that person loves you.
okie... guess i'll stop for now. i don't want to run out of ideas for my next entry.
"i'm off", said the madman
Thursday, October 27, 2005
lol. seems like im the one blogging here. tsk tsk. kuku yaniee getting lazy huh? haha. lets just assume she hasnt found inspiration yet. haha.
speaking about inspiration, i cant seem to think of something to write about tonight. lol. lets see... its 1133 pm right now. listening to seal's kiss from a rose. going to sleep soon though. haha. ahh yes... something just came up. lol.sometimes i wonder if im a nuisance to people. it could be just me, but i feel that sometimes my presence makes things worse for other people. like when i try to help, i turn out to be wrecking things up. and changing a person's life, for the worse. you think so? lol. i wouldnt know, unless i found out how things would turn out if i wasnt in the picture, which is, impossible. =/
so lets see... i sometimes think im hopeless too. as in i cant do anything to change or make a situation better. like something happens to someone, in which i am indirectly held responsible, but i cant seem to do anything about it. cause those people who are in the picture, are not under my power to control. cause theyre frigging adults. moronic people. sheesh.
i guess ill stop here. ill save the other parts for later, just in case yaniee wants me to blog again. heh. sometimes i think blogging helps release stress. you think so too? lol. i wouldnt know. =)
*lol, took me 7 mins to write this one out. heh*
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
hmmm. shitty stuffs are in my mind again. me and yaniee i guess. feel like crying. or more like i DID cry. dont know about yannie though. im gonna cry again when i reach my bed. things seems so sucky. or maybe its jus me. i dont know. ah heck, people would say i shouldnt make a fuss about my life. it looks good enough. yeah, they're right i guess. LOOKS good enough.
seems like a lot of stuffs bother yaniee too. sometimes it crushes me to know that not a lot of people care about her. a lot just cant be bothered. even some of her friends. well, maybe some try to show or act that they do, but heck, they dont try to understand. heck, TRYING isnt enough. never would be.
i mean cant they like be a little less selfish and try to put themselves into her shoes for once? in fact, anyone's shoes for once. i bet they wont even bother. selfish people. sheesh. only caring about their personal lives. heck, go do something good for someone for once man...
i bet they dont even care what kind of problems people go through. heck, i bet they dont even care to look at their friend's blog and give advice should there be problems that they can help solve. heck, i bet i can count the number of people with my fingers. wait, make that the fingers on ONE hand. sheesh. i guess i'll stop here. before i go any further and wreck this entry. lol.
*sorry yaniee. this seems so like a bad entry. cant help it lar. feel too shitty. =/
Feeling bored today... so decided to do THIS again. GIVE LIFE TO YANIEE'S BLOG. Lol. Heh.
Heard about this quote some other day. Goes like this: "Long life is slow death."
Think about it.
*sad huh?*
Thursday, October 20, 2005
HALO!
helo!
halo!
HELO!
hmm. that's very very VERY familiar.
and i finished helping mum baking muffins. and yes of course, the end product is very NICE. *mwahh. marvellous. thot of making kuih today. but then, FORGET IT. mum needed to use the oven for her muffins. and i can always do it tomoro. =).
things that are bothering me at this point of time.
#my eoy results. okay, at least i have faith in myself in passing all the subjects. but definitely not geog. now i know why shasha used to get so ARGGHHH over geog. i always thot it was just a peanuts subject. just rocks and stuff. i have proven myself wrong when i took the eoy geog paper. forget abt getting A for geog, suriyani.
#hafiz. i really really do want to help him. i keep telling myself to just ignore the way he treats me. touched, yes. pissed off, YES. he doesnt even try to understand me that im trying to understand him. i want him to be happy. it really wrecks my heart to see him so sad and depressed. cause i have been to that stage. i went to the extent of cutting myself. i even went to a REAL councilor. *this is meant for hafiz. so come on dude. you want me to understand you. BUT you never gave me a chance to say that im trying to understand you.
#rayer. gahh. i know there's 2 wks more to go. but then, so many things are left undone.
no point in writing further about what's bothering me. cause i dont see the point of doing it. and cause what i know is that, i dont feel f**ed up with these bloody things. im actually feeling happy. so HECK!
i hate my hair at first sight. but now, you know what. MY HAIR RAWKS BALLS! and yeah, with the fact that the owner is a ball rawker. gahh. WONDER WHO GAVE THAT KUKU TITLE TO HAIR-OWNER..?
and i have not done my tajwid homework. ustaz's gonna skin me this sat.
look, how long i blogged. SEE IMA. i WIN you!
toodles. =)
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
and i forgot to bring my pencil box to school despite the fact that i know today there is exams. ohwells. i was too engrossed in worrying for my orals rather than my cme. and yes, MY HAIR.
you know, i very malas tau want to blogg.
and i saw two dead birds. sighs. one with the eys opened. mesti mati terkejot. wanted to close the eyes for it. but ohwells. was too petrified. another one, its head was covered with blood. and the head was moving. GROSS. sighs.
again, im very malas want to blog.
okay fine. i'll stop here. hurrr.
Its like 11:25 pm now... And I'm bored. =/ Lol. Not Yaniee, this is Husniee. =) Yaniee's asleep I bet. Snoring herself off (was about to put "snoring her ass off"). Anyways, I kinda couldn't take it when I see her blog so dead... Its like D-E-A-D. Well, its not gonna be anymore once I finish this. =) So yeah, decided to DO something. Cause KUKU YANIEE wanted me to. X) Or at least suggested me to.
I'll just use this opportunity to rant my thoughts. Its like I'm making this my blog now... Wonder if she minds... Hope she doesn't. Cause if she does, its too LATE. MuAhAhA.
Ever wondered why you do what you do? Its like all you do in life, all you obtained, the friends you made, the success you've achieved, all goes away when you... die. Yeah, we're all gonna die someday. This makes me think what's the point of doing all the hard work when you're gonna die anyway. =/ But I guess, if you want a good life, you gotta give SOMETHING. Like hard work. Oh well, that so didn't make any sense.
How about this, have you ever wondered how you and your friends got to be friends? As in why the both of you? Why not some other person? What makes you so special to him or her? What determines a person's "like" for another? What determines THINGS?
But then again, we're all humans. Servants of The Almighty. We're not worthy to know of His reasons for such stuffs. Guess we never would know. =/
*note to yaniee. cheer up girl. life's too short to sulk about. we're all here for you. =)*
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
gee. thanks a lot syafiq. and now im hooked up at YOUR favourite word. SLENGER. and kakak's been complaining that i use too much of that word and it is getting on her freaking nerves. GRAHH. im gonna get you, syafiq! but ohwells. forget it. cause whenever i see ure pathetic and oh-please-have-mercy-on-me face, i have that sudden feeling that i should shower a teeny weeny bit of sympathy to slenger syafiq who spreaded his addiction of using his quality to me.
the science paper today wasnt that hard. as compared to yesterdae's paper. i ate my heart out after the geog paper yesterdae and that was why i went home straight and leaving you ghurls with your fun that you want to have. sorry to bother and affect you ghurls. okay, i'll change. even if it means .... nah, nvm. wont want to say it.
grahh. i dont like this at all. im undergoing aftereffects of depression even though i din even experience depression. i have to change. I HAVE TO CHANGE. I MUST MAKE MYSELF HAPPY. I MUST MAKE OTHERS HAPPY. I MUST SMILE ALWAYS AND I CANNOT BE ALONE KEEPING QUIET. I MUST MIX AROUND. I MUST! I MUST! gee. i sound as if i am an anti-social.
i fear big big BIG groups of people who comes approaching me. or surrounding me. i used to think that i was just scared of those ppl who i label mats and minahs who come together in big grps. i would take a longer route just to avoid them. but one fine day, one BIG HUGE group of the sec 2 guys in my school were approaching me. grahhh. i panicked like hell. and pretended to be using my hp. but then i wasnt able to escape lah. one of them jokingly asked for number. lalala. who cares. i just kept quiet. i used syaf's tactic. she pretends to talk on the phone when she's embarrased of her crushes when they are around her. kaka. lawak lah tu budak. anyway, the story abt the sec 2 boys happened not so recently. just feel like telling it here.
as i walked down the big canal, so many things came to mind. what will happen if it was raining heavily and i drowned inside that big canal? nobody is able to save me then i guess. *sobs.
today is our 1 month anniversary. grahhh. ima and the others say i should not have tied the string on sept 11. eerie date they say. but ohwells. CINTA GERHANA TAK AKAN PADAM WALAU APA PUN. haha. berbahasa lak aku. meeting up tomorrow instead. but the weird thing is that im looking forward to other things more than the meet-up. grahhh. ohwells. i know im gonna love it no matter what.
-the ring looks so fine especially when your name is on it.
i hate to admit this, but i get very jealous seeing them so happy together without __. ohwells. forget it. smile suriyani. SMILE.
MAYBE, just a maybe, i'll blogg lata in the nite.
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
O.S.I.M.
OhShitItsMonday.
i love crapping with kuku bestfren. it seemed so long we did that. =))))
i cant help smiling. =)))
tomoro. 4 weeks. YAY. YAY. YAY!
sighs. 44 weeks seemed very very long. VERY, you know!
okay. i blogged. cool shit, aint it?
Heh, given the opportunity to blog in Yaniee's blog again. Guess I'll do what she did, as a token of appreciation.
YANIEE RAWKS. heh. =)*hope she likes it*
HUSNI RAWK.
sumhow i need to keep my blog updated. so yeah. i dont have all the time i want to blog. so toodles!
i wish words left unsaid would do everyone good.
i am a bad daughter and a bad sister. i should have not fought with my siblings. i should not have defend myself. i should just let them rant at me for being such a pest in the kitchen while i had good intentions of helping them to cook for the family. i should be saying sorry every minute cause i make mistakes practically almost all the time. i should not have talked on the phone or used the computer for basic purposes or let's just say, go to school. i should have just been an introvert who should not have friends. come to think of it, there's no reason why i should be living in this world, having thoughts that i am a special living being who brings even a teeny weeny small significance to everyone.
sorry if my presence is a disturbance to anyone.
i almost ended up in the hospital due to the fact that i almost got squashed up in between a lift's door. thanks to ryhan, my used to be cat-fighter, i managed to survive and still living up till now typing out horrendous words by just a click of hers on the button lift. all because i wasnt thinking straight.
im now the black sheep in the house. happy everyone?
dont worry about me, ghurls. just make me happy if you wish to see the happy side of me. not only my ghurls, everyone else who wants to see me happy. and that is if there is even anyone who wants to see me happy.
this is just half of why i was and still is suffering.
-covers face. crouching low.
all alone.
living lonely in the darkness
of a dark and lonely night.
i am all alone on this road
no one else in sight.
the road is wet
from the rain that came down at three.
i look down into all the puddles
and all i can is me.
i look up into the sky
to see the stars twinkling before me.
the sky stretches so very very high
too high for me to see.
looking down the creepy road
there is not a soul in sight.
i am all alone and free
during this cold and bitter night.
Saturday, October 01, 2005
a kiss on the lady's hand.
mendoza has a crush on mama milk.
mama milk took the wrong bus home due to the fact that she felt guilty because she felt she was a bad friend and a bad lover cause she thought she neglected both parties.
mama milk blushes when the kekasih kenyit mata at her.
the kekasih says that the lady had a very cute smile and is really very beautiful.
the kekasih missed his soccer match and got ranted by his coach.
the kekasih missed his lunch and got scolded by the teacher because he was daydreaming and missing someone very much.
and all that is because of the lady. and now the lady feels bad.
the kekasih drank the drink using the lady's straw and for that, he says it's sharing a drink.
mama milk is in good terms with mendoza.
and yeah.
dang!*. finally blogged.
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
i shall blog for today. for the sake of myself, cause i found the reason why i should and have to blog today. and for the sake of some other people like the chicken. the bestfren. the advisor. the imposter.
selamat tinggal kasih.
selamat tinggal sayang.
that was just a song. or should i say just two lines from a song. but im half of it. haish. "we shouldn't be calling everyday. we shouldnt be talking on the phone everyday." grahhhhhhh. you know how downcasted i felt then? i mean, you know how bad i tend to miss you when i dont hear from you. you know i'll end up being on the verge to cry. and this friday, our date was cancelled. cause you got soccer match. okay. i jsut wish you all the best for the match. but not caling you at least once a day? that's gonna be.... *sobs. OKAY. snap it out yani. what he said was right. if we call every single day, our relationship would turn out to be muak. MUAK, you know. like what they say. absence makes the heart fonder. so yeah. i shall ignore his messages and calls for a day. and we'll see. -cries. im already starting to miss you badly.
.my sweet love.
give me your hand.
and we'll down together down the obstacles.
we would always be together and happy always. =)
-translation of the song he sang to me just now over the phone. =)
FUN. HAVE
fun. have fun. HAVE FUN.-just a display on a watson tissue packet.i had fun in the afternoon. =)
so many sad things have happened at such short notice.
`him.
`i failed my bloody geog common test.
`the guy who toyed with my heart. the guy who played ard with me. is going away. im gonna miss him.
okay. i want to stop here. all i need is that all my ghurls and saiful and rafiq and kuku bestfren and anyone else to be there for me by my side starting from tomoro so that i wun feel too much of his absence. =(
Sunday, September 25, 2005
Heh, at last. I now have the password to Kuku Yaniee's blog. wOOt. Got it when I was doing my usual "fly-by" around. Then I saw Kuku Yaniee giving some handsome and smart guy her password and her username. I'm damned lucky to see it. So finally, I can now write whenever I want, wherever I want, WHATEVER I WANT. WOOT. As long as I have a computer with me. LOL.
Well, I shall introduce myself first. Heh.
My name is "
Black Butt Chicken" =/ I don't think you humans can pronounce that... Oh well, people call my by my other name, or at least they know me by another name : Black Butt Chicken. Stupid name if you ask me. Just because I got cooked and burnt at the butt, they HAD to call me that. Kuku people. I shall talk about it some other time. Okie... So my first intention was to write about how I came about to be ME. Yes, ME. =) Let's see, I got this picture of me when I was young.
Cute huh? Didn't have a recent picture thought. Uh... Playing with strings WAS my favourite pastime. Okie, let's get along now.
I was born SOMEWHERE. LOL. I can't rememeber where exactly cause I got lost and seperated from my family. Just because I was stuck with that frigging string. Yeah, like that, in the earlier picture. So yeah, since then, I've been wandering around just to find my family back. Sad right? But hell, that's life. Just move on... Move on...
There was this time when I saw this damned cute chick. She was like SOO cute that I was stuck to my ground. My feet won't move, curse them. LOL. Just because of that, I didn't get to ask for her number. She went away as soon as I saw her... Got her picture though.
Damned cute right? Haiz... Hope I get to see her again. LOL.
Anyway, my life is so nice lately. I got this nice owner who takes care of me. YEAH! He's damned smart, and handsome. =P Heh. He's teaching me to fly properly. Cool huh? One day, I'm going to reach the skies and search for my family. And bring them with me to my owner probably.
Oh well, I guess that's all I can type for now... My feet are tired. Mind you, I'm a chicken.
Friday, September 23, 2005
i hate today. but i love today. really. awesomatic not so great but GREAT lah.
sighs. i wanna blog. but everything so yikes.
soo. just pray that i'll be in the perfect mood to blog sumhow.
=)
all of you play a part in trying to make suriyani GOGO for this. =D
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
i get paranoid when nobody's around and im bored and im not talking to anyone and i find myself very helpless in a situation where by everything is black and white cause the people who rawk my life isnt there at all. and that was when i started thinking whether anyone would notice if i was gone. just disappear into thin air without anyone even knowing it. whether i have made at least a small significance to anybody's life ever since i was born into this oh-so-beautiful world. you know, sometimes, it's kinda cool having these kind of tots.
i am currently studying or should i say revising geog. and i still haven completed compo and rr. grr. man. i totally screwed up during my hmt paper just now. BANG!.
kuku bestfren rawks my world a lot. and for the fact that he likes cute girls. bahhh. LOL. and for another fact that he's superr-dee-duperr great and for that he RAWKS MY WORLD.
i miss him ALOT. okay. define alot in this context. my ALOT means more than you could ever imagine. so try imagining. you'll never get it. haa. i dont understand what crony i was talking abt. but yeah. i miss him alot. kesian daddie. penat dier. mum says im a great massager. if i was by his side, i WOULD DEFINITELY GIVE HIM AN UNFORGETABLE MASSAGE. haa.
okayy. tada! mission accomplished. see how EFFECTIVE i am. i managed to blog despite the fact that im trying to figure out how the hell am i going to continue revising and finish my compo. =)
Monday, September 19, 2005
everything sucks now. and i feel shitty.im alone in this BLUE room. eating this eeewww-not-nice soto. and it looks pathetic enuff. i cant even swallow a single bit properly. telephone and the handphone is in front of me. but neither is cracking up. kuku bestfren is not online. and surprisingly, im yearning for hafiz. so that he comes online and fill me with his notorious craps. daddie's not able to talk to me. in the hopital accompanying his bro. not gonna come to school tomoro. sighs. you know how lonely i am right now. everything looks very pathetic. even myself. sheesh.
this morning was total chaos. early in the morning, the whole house turned topsy-turvy. and i relleh felt i was a bad girl. far more worse than those gangsters, a-liens and minahs outside. i felt so *toot*. bad daughter. bad follower. bad friend. *familiar ain't it? im experiencing it all over again. this far MORE worse.* so yeah. called daddie early in the morn oredi. he's the first and the only one to know what i was going thru then. im really glad he was there. in replacement of kuku bestfren. ahh. "tulah. i suro you kawin ngan i, tanak. jadi you bole duduk ngan i. tk yahlah you sedih sgt pasal ni." gee. he's sweet aint he?
came late for mad. nabilah sewel's fault. i waited for like 15 whole minutes for her. and by the time she came, it was already 10.55. GREAT. exam starts at 11. it was raining. and nabilahh could walk so leisurely as if the ustazahs had all the time to wait for her. and we reached at 11.15. but ohwells, they havent start the paper. so yeah. we were lucky enuff. akidah was hard. sirah was easy. except for the last section. i shared the same exact sentiments as hafiz. wahaha.
went out with fara and hafiz. that bloody hafiz ehh. i waited for him at the platform. but he waited below. -_-''. and we missed 2 bloody trains for that. and when we met up at the platform. whoah we were talking so loudly like no one's bis. and alot of ppl was staring at us. and argued and bickered and debated alot. frm the platform to inside the train and to lot 1. man, so many people was staring. he took alot of efforts to embarass me. he took note of every single grammatical mistake i made. and whenever he made one himself, he did stick ut his tongue. hehs. he was comparing his sch and RI. he said his sch has beaten RI in academic wise and even sports for 3 years in a row. but ppl still think RI is the top sch in singapore. he and his craps. i love it lah. those cheesy sensible talks. though complicated to understand. stilll very great to listen. man, i do relleh have alot to talk abt him. but ohwells. i'll just cut here and there. went home with him as well. well, what do you expect, we live 4 blocks away onli. then in the bus, he relleh ranted at me. and i was simply dumbfounded. and speechless. i couldnt say anything but just to nod and agree what he said. it seems like everything he says is BINGO. and he inspired me alot. ALOT. i'll follow his examples. 1) wake up at 1 am. and study and do your homeworks. its kinda cool if you ask me why 1 am in the morning. 2) i dunno the next thing. but he inspried me alot lah. and he gave me money. he said he had debts with me. that's weird. cause i dont remember any debts with you. LOL.
man. there's more actually. but ohwells. its okay. its more than enuff.
i sang to baby just now. ! weee. hehs. i feel very lonely. *sobs.
Sunday, September 18, 2005
i have to blog somehow.
after looking at kuku bestfren's recent tagg, i relleh have the urge to BLOG IT. SOME people sure do miss me alot. haa.
tomorrow's mad exam. i gotta score for it man. gotta show the GIRL in me. *used the girl instead of man. LOL* during the mid-year, i think i got 5th position. I THINK LAH. cause nasir got 3rd and his overall score was not far frm mine. just by 1 or 2 marks. dang!
so suriyani. GO FOR IT BEBEH! *but oh man. im shuddering here. MUIS PSLE. MUIS PSLE. MUIS PSLE. grr. do i relleh have to do it.? do i have a choice anymore.?* snap out. i already paid 25 bucks for the registration. so, i MUST do it. so yeah. lalalala. it'll be peanuts lah eh.
yesterdae relleh din have the semangat aka enthusiasm to go for NP. i even banged my head on the table to show how much i din want to go for NP. but inthe end, went to change and finally, without realising it, i already fall-in. the training was okay lah. close to fun. we did marching all the way. learnt ke blakang pusing. KHAIRANI RAWK ON AH! hehs. lucky my grp were all made up of potential cadets. not like faizah and amira 1/8. =x
and fil. you dont have any right to ask me abt my social life. if HE wants to know, please tell him not to get a spy or sumting. whether im still happy being single or sad being attached, it's NONE OF YOU OR HIS BUSINESS. dont ask me whether things can get okay like it used ot be with him again. nonono. it's a NO. NO. i'll drill that in your head somehow.
and finally. i have washed my hands abt that. it's a tragic end though.
this part goes out to baby.
sayang. i really love you. yes, i do. i wish our relationship wont last 1 year. but 40-50 years. we're married by then, having children and grand-children. we'll be like diyana and aaron. have a big and NICE house. sighs. i love creating dreams with you. the way you call me Ma makes me smile. LING. ayang. MA. mummie. i really loved those callings. whenever i said the 3 magical words, you always jump as a sign of joy. how we met. why we met. i really wondered. but i really am happy cause it happened. i am really happy cause you were there for me. and i was there for you. being strong for each other. you said you'd make me ure wife in years to cum. and you'll bring me over to ure house to introduce to ure parents. you relleh sound as if you were really serious and you treasured this relationship. im sorry for not being there where ure physically hurt by sum senseless creatures who dont care abt ure well-being. im relleh sorry for making you so worried each time im not telling you sumting. dear, you too okay. please. if you're feeling shitty or anything, please come to me. talk to me and tell me abt it. dun keep it to ureself. that's what you said to me too. you dn cared how others would think. you just wanted the best for us. thx ayang. thx for respecting me. i respect you too. repect you for a person who respects others. respects you for a person who loves me sho much and couldnt bear to see my heart sinking. thx darl. i love you to bits and pieces. -hugss.
Friday, September 16, 2005
okay. i wont be blogging much for today and for a few more days or maybe 1 week or so. very stressed up with studies and family crisis. been quite busy. one of it with the fone. LOL. geog. 15 chapters to revise at one go!. mad exam! HMT EXAM! grr. suck man. so yeah.
MISS ME OKAY PPL!. JUST NUDGE ME AT THE TAGBOARD. IT'S ALWAYS THERE. =))
toodles!. i love him.
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
i feel so bad inside. so bad cause im not able to stay by your side and ease your pain. im relleh sorry for not being there for you. i assure you i wont cry for you're being strong for me. and i'll be strong for you too. im sorry cause im unable to massage ure bruises. im sorry i wasnt able to treat your scratches. im having an injured pair of gums like you too. i know how you feel. be strong aight. i wish i could accompany you to the doctor's. get well soon aight.
i love you lots. after this incident, i realised how much closer we have been.
had a super-dee-duper great day today. man. i cant seem to blog it now. i feel so tired and sleepy. tomoro okay. tata.
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
should i blog. or should i not. should i. or should i not?
im feeling so much better compared to how cocky and cranky i felt just now. add VERY to cocky. sighs. i got the MRS. and i need the cure badly. BADLY. do you know how badly it is. grr. and everyone in the family is totally pissing me off. adek took my stuff without my permission. mum chatted on the fone for so long and therefore babyface couldnt call. kakak din wake me up when i TER-sleep while waiting for him to call. and therefore he called and i couldnt get to talk to him all becuase i was asleep and nobody woke me up. dad. dont mention him. everything's going haywire.
and what yay-ness. my wish to fast fully today just gone down the drain just like that. *snaps fingers*. grr. i drowned in red sea again. i just got rescued that day. now i drown again. sheesh.
i love crapping with atik. i love her to bones man. she rawk as a beloved daughter. and she has the cheek to ask for $50 for hari raya. hurr. we were enjoying the giler moments in the lab. till we rolled down the floor and laughed our ass off. cool aint it. we talked and chatted a lot of stuff. she's sweet lah. and shaz, dun worry. i hate favouritsm. so yeah. i love you as much as i love atik. i love all my children. =)
and for the first time in my life, i saw with my eyes, saiful being so quiet. you know why he's quiet? he MERAJUK and became sad after hearing what syafinah said to him. boy, i relleh din know what to do at that point of time. LUCKY, amirah came to the rescue. =)
and i still dont get it why kuku bestfren calls me kuku nathen. he said it's just a lame idea of getting it by president nathan. just paying around with the alphabets. he sounds as if i was a die-die fan of president nathan. but ohwells. adek said it sounded like one of the people in hi-5. nathen. lol. -_-''
i crave for ice-cream.
i crave for LJS.
i crave for chocolates.
i crave for chips.
whoah. suriyani. mind you. ure getting way out of control.
and i said the 3-letter-word to him. and he was over the moon. and that was over the phone. at 6++. then he told me he'd call me at 8. but up till now, i am still waiting for his call. it's already 11. ohwells. i msged him telling him to forget abt the call. i think he's asleep lah. his hp was off.
he's shorter than i am. by 1 or 2 cm only. and he doesnt mind. he told EVERYTHING. EVERY SINGLE THING would shoot up by sec 3. gee. he was influencing me. =x
oh toodles then.
Monday, September 12, 2005
im trying my very best to make mum happy. i know everything's not fine for her now. now i feel shitty all over. what more for her? she's s strong woman bebeh. LIKE ME. hehs. WE ARE STRONG WOMEN. =)). but someday. i knwo she's gonna break down. dad. please do sumting before she does.
he's sick. awwwwwwwwwww. take care darl. rest your head on my laps. and i'll stroke your head gently. blowing sweet kisses. take medicine okay. i know ure strong. LIKE ME. but then medicines help you to get well soon. so take care. "kalau you sayang i, besok you call okay?'' yes i will. =). `hugs.
what is the world coming to? antitudung lah. minah tudung tak berakal lah. WHAT SHIT! the pot calling the kettle black. you are one minah tudung too. UNLESS YOU NO LONGER ARE. sheesh. and to those people out there who declares themselves as ISLAM, but buys beer and 4D, please get a life. and please dont be shy when you see a makcik or someone who wears tudung. dont get embarrassed. like what one of you did just now. hurr.
andd! for the girl's toilet on level 5. dont blame me if you think its stupid. i only did the pot peri by the sink and the posters! so it's none of my business if you want to complain abt the paintings on the walls and the last cubicle. IT'S NOT MY FAULT. so yeah. declaration done.
singing is my joy. maybe one day i should become like mariah carey. LOL. NOT. of course not. i know i dont sing well. nobody has ever heard me sing. hehs. so *BLUEKS. //he sings too. hehs.//
the makings of the muffins shall be postponed due to some family crisis going on in this house. so sorry. =(
done!
i love him lots.
Sunday, September 11, 2005
my arms hurt a hell lot. especially on the right side. all thanks to atik and lyssyah for their beating but meant to be massage. grr. atik on the left side. lyssyah on the right. so SHOOT LYSSYAH! *bang. sobs. it relleh hurts. and it's not helping much by massaging them on my own. SOBS.
family crisis. sighs. mum, im relleh sorry cause i feel im not doing my part as a daughter. i can understand what ure going thru mum. i relleh can understand. im sorry for making you waste ure energy on me. wasting ure precious saliva for just scolding me. im relleh sorry for wasting ure time trying to make me a prefect daughter. im relleh sorry.
DAD. PLEASE DO SOMETHING. SOMETHING TO MAKE THIS FAMILY A STRONGER ONE. YOU'RE THE HEAD OF THE FAMILY. SHOULDN'T YOU HAVE THAT SENSE OF RESPONSIBILITY? THE FAMILY NEEDS TO EAT. WHY CANT YOU GO TO THE MARKET WITH MUM? YOU WOKE UP EARLY JUST TO WASH THE CAR? WTH. THEN YOU NEVER BOTHERED TO GO TO THE MARKET WITH MUM. YOU SPENT THE WHOLE DAY READING THE NEWSPAPERS. WHAT SHIT. I KNOW ITS GOOD BEING A KNOWLEDGEABLE PERSON. BUT HELL. YOU NEGLECTED YOUR FAMILY. YOU NEVER KNEW HOW WE FELT. ALL YOU KNEW WAS THAT YOU THINK YOU'RE GREAT AT HANDLING SUCH DOMESTIC AFFAIRS. WHEN THERE WAS NOTHING LEFT AT HOME, YOU ONLY BOTHER TO GO OUT AND BUY STUFFS FOR YOUR OWN SELF. WHAT ABOUT US? YOU NEVER CARED. YOU FEEL IT'S BETTER TO SAVE YOURSELF FIRST IN A FIRE. ISNT THAT SO? YOU OFTEN COMMENT ON OTHERS. BUT YOU NEVER REALISED YOU ARE JUST LIKE THEM. WHEN ANYBODY, MUM OR NENEK, TRIES TO TALK TO YOU AND POINT OUT WHAT WAS WRONG, YOU'LL FALL INTO A RAGE. COME ON MAN. YOU NEVER GAVE US A CHANCE TO SAY WHAT WE WANT. there's so much more i wanted to say. i never had a chance. -crys.
ohwells. that was a domestic affair. sorry to vent it out here and you guys reading it.
i love you. soccer fanatic at heart and cutesy blur kid on the surface. how cute. your words keep ringing in my head. `smiles.
i suck at essays. hurr.
okay done! mission accomplised. alot of ppl do miss me. hehs.
Friday, September 09, 2005
im fasting again today. another 2 hours more to go. and i'll gorge myself to death. nobody else needs me lah. so whatever for? actually, gorging ureself to death is a great idea. then, when it goes for autopsy test, you'll rip the stomach and see what exactly has been going on. if the stomach is super FULL, then conclusion: okay, this person has died of gorging himself to death. -_-"
how cool can my aunty be? -_-'' she has msn. just added me up. notti ah this aunty of mine. she's a _____. fill in the blanks ureself. i dunnoe what she works as exactly. but she works in a school. aww. how noble can that be. lol.
i dont want to talk about babyface. i shall rant about it only to perhaps kuku bestfren. ima got pissed off i guess. seems like i cant talk about it here. i dont want to get on anybody else's nerves.
i'll be waiting for 8 o'clock. lalala~
will blogg again at night!. toodles jer lah eh!.
Thursday, September 08, 2005
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
i feel so OVERJOYED. you know. VERY VERY VERY OVERJOYED.
i just feel like dancing it off. shake shake and dance dance. WOOHOO.
i just feel like jumping up and down. up and down. UP and down. !!!!!!! weeeeeeeee.
i cant stop smiling. SMILE SMILE SMILE. =)))))
the babyface. the babyvoice. the babyattitude. awwww. BABY!
i cant stop melting seeing the babyface. VERY VERY VERY cute. you know. i just feel like pinching cheeks. WEEEEE.
and i still cant stop smiling. =)))
CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE. =)))
bahh. that's enuff lah. ppl get tired even if you dont, suriyani. hurr.
`BABYFACE!
okay. the maid wasnt scary. just shocking moments. hehs. i was not scared lah. -_-''
ima was very nice. she bought me tolberone for me to break fast. and she gave me $4 to add up to the $25 i had to buy stamp for my card. phew. thanks ima. YOU RAWK LAH BABE! wa caya sama lu!
meeting cikgu tomoro. i relleh wonder what he's gonna pass to me.
raziff's cute. =p.
kuku bestfren RAWK MY WORLD like how he rawk my socks. =))
`you cant be possesive of what you want and dont own at all.
done!
i finally succeded in the attempt of puasa-ing. on mon was a failed attempt due to the fire i created. on tues was another failed attempt due to my setengah-mati-tanak-bangun mood. so TODAY I FINALLY PUASA. woots.
greenridge plaza has changed a bit though. its been such a loong time since i went there. and finally today i went there to buy groceries for mum. though i hate running errands but ohwells. ANAK SOLEHAH kan. kaka*
going to ima's house lata. giving her back her maths. and she's giving me her buku kerja and sci. gonna SLACK. watching the maid with her. cant wait. woo. and mebbe do up abit of the cme project. and yeah.
i'll blogg again lata. at nite. TOODLES!~
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
went to JE library today. with ima, syaf, mirah and lyssyah. saiful and shafie din cum in the end! damn.! i was awaiting all the fun we would have if saiful would come. definitely much more fun. woot. but we had much fun with all 5 together. mirah was always the latest. we went to eat at kfc. blablabla. then we did our homeworks. OKAY FINE. i told myself to complete at least half of it. but i THINK i failed my mission. i only managed to finish the narrator's worksheet and one journal. =x. ohwells. not going out on tues, wed and thurs. so I MUST FINISH IT BY THOSE THREE DAYS. MUST SURIYANI. MUST!
saw a couple of people. rima and gang. husni and gang. lemang and gang. many-many people lah eh. and i saw ame, fads and dunnoe-who. frens of supernana. ohwells. they dont know me.
so pictures pictures! all with the help of photoshop. well, except one. so yeah. let the pictures speak.
.sweet.
.the smile. the laugh. were all caused by all the people i love. `muahs.
.she just don't want to be high-profile.
.this is STUPID and DUMB.
.THIS IS ORIGINAL. no photoshop-ing was needed. =))
.things wasnt so easy as you thought so.
bang bang. that's all lah. anyway. IM JUST BLOODY 13. there was this survey-er. he *i THINK* saw me. and approach me. "Are you a student or are you working?" "A student. =)" "Student? How many years old are you?" "umm. 13 years old" "13 years old?!. well, you dont look 13. anyway. thanks. =D" .
haa. thanks for complimenting i look matured. DO I?*
will be cuming down to grps to look for cikgu iskandar. he says he got sumting to pass to me. hmm. wonder what izzit.
i'll tell about this morning's incident to people who i love. wont want to mention it here. it was stupid of me. -_-''.
toodles then!
Monday, September 05, 2005
IM LAZY.
so i'll put this up. =))
PUISI CINTA GELISAH
Di hening malam yang dingin inihati ku sedang gelisah
lama benar sudah menanti datangnya seorang kekasih
yang ingin bermesra
buat membisikkan kata-kata cinta.
Dan....Bila cinta mulai berbicara
dua hati mulai berpadu
kata-kata tidak berguna lagi...
im half of what this puisi says. `sighs.
Saturday, September 03, 2005
pondering over what yache said just now.
-logical people are people who are good in maths and science.
im bad at maths and sci. so im totally opposite of what she said. so im ILLOGICAL? ILLOGICAL you mean? cant be lah. SURIYANI BTE SUPA'ED is a logical kid. =))
i suck at reading quran. COME ON YANI. buck up. buck up and i mean it okay. and ure maths and sci too. and every single thing other than those i mentioned. ure evil twin here is getting real angry. dont embarrass her any further lah. ure evil twin has ure interests at heart. she wants you to be the best. the best among the lousy people. she cries when you are surrounded by so many smarties. you knwo how much she suffered. tsk tsk. get a life lah yani!
and i realised alot of people have been saying that i lost weight and slimmed down and stuff. cikgu iskandar. supernana. ima. and many other people. DID I? hehs. thanks alot though. but i thot i was gaining weight all this while. but check the weighing scale, i was NOT. and i noticed im not eating much this days. and i get real full when i eat my usual routine. haa. what is happening actually? *girl's confessions*
i havent ate a single proper meal today. was too busy going round part of singapore to STUDY STUDY STUDY. not relleh study though. that's so not suriyani. LOL.
and now, i have to wear spec hooks all the time. cause yesterdae i slept on my beloved specs. and it's gone a bit haywire. so gotta fix it up with the spec hooks. i relleh wished i could turn back time, and took off my specs while watching tv. though i cannot see. haa.
the holidays schedule.
MODAY-finish up homeworks and assignments by THAT DAY with my ghurls.
TUESDAY-np. campcraft, PT and games.
WEDNESDAY-geog project and cme project too.
THURSDAY-i wanna have time-out with ghurls.
FRIDAY-school. decor the toilet.
yeah. it's not confirmed though. so yeah. ha.
some intellectual guys rawk lah. NOT ALL! *like rafiqq.
byebye. slmt tinggal.
`i feel very hurt.
i dont believe in horoscope thingy that you find in mags like teens and lime. but i do read them. JUST TO MAKE MYSELF HAPPY. during free period, we went library and i intended to read half of the ERP book within 20 mins or so. but i failed. =x. so i borrowed atik's notes. and as i was *studying* the notes, alyssyah read out my horoscope aloud to me. "YOUR MR RIGHT IS LURKING AROUND." sheesh.
sighs. im not ready yet. YET. NOT READY.
and yeah. then everyone was happy. even ima. -smiles. im glad ima trusted and confided in me. you know. im always here. if you think you cant talk to others. there's always a suriyani around. =D. and atik and i were acting like superwomans with super strong magnet repulsion in us, by hugging each other and pushing each other at the same time. -_-''. ATIKA IS ONE MAD KID THOUGH.
maths was fun. with the YES-NO game with mr kerk. it was very fun. and very cute. and he's given us two final-year exercises from the workbook in return. that was bad of you though. dont blame us if we couldnt complete it at ure expected duedate. =p
the class photos were superr cute. in the informal photos. rafiq looked like a shy girl. saiful looked like a kid who has no clues why he was born into earth. josie looked as if she went on a date or something and she look so overjoyed in a shy mood. xiu ting looked as if she was a hairdresser doing lois' hair. eunice and pam looked as if they were hitting each other heads. and jason looked as if she was doing a blowjob. =x.
-that's enough suriyani. hee.
im superr-dee-duperr glad when ms ong said i improved. and mum. dont discourage in everything i do. COME ON. give me motivation like what the progress card says. and gee. i failed my art. only lah. i suck at art. but who cares. people say i got a VERY NICE HANDWRITING. bahh. you dirty biggie rat. i told you i did get A1 for home econs. =D. atiquah and i were simply the best couple every lesson. =))
np promotion test today. it was hell wearing the uniform today especially. it wont MASUK. MASUK. MASUK. syaf and lyssyah who heard me from outside the toilet were giggling all the way. you gurls eh. otak kuning sehh. masuk kan skirt dlm belt lah. masukkan dlm kasut LAH! at first i was losing in the competition of wearing the complete uniform in tip-top condition. BUT. i won at last. =D.
and i was rewarded with a GOOD by kak nisa when she inspected my uniform. but second inspcetion by kak aishah was not so GREAT lah. she pointed out why me collar not flat. dont worry. i wont repeat it aight! np training was tiring today. but the sec 1s were especially good today compared to other trainings. well. except for amirah though. her langkah SUCK.
and yeah. with the usual scoldings and pumpings and stuff. we went back home, feeling VERY VERY exhausted. and i ahd to carry the files along with the uniform and boots. you know how torturing it was. hmphh.
and i got a surprise along the way back home. as i was walking, i sensed somebody was following me from behind. i ignored and just walked a lil bit faster. he/she was getting closer. i walked even FASTER. suddenly HE caught me from the side and called YANIII! bang!*. it was him. HIM. the skimmer. =x. muker aku dahlarh buruk. muker penat. he helped me carry my stuff though till i reached home.
-LUCKY, i never sing that time. usually, after alighting from the bus, and walking 5-10 minutes back home, i would sing to kill boredom. when THERE'S NO ONE AROUND LAH. haha.
im gonna keep myself busy next week. with study grp. projects. homeworks. cca. and. i need to have time-out with my ghurls. sorry di. i might not make it if you ask me out. =x.
well. i cant seem to blogg more. but i want to blogg it.
what's making me upset is HAFIZ ACS.
what that made me happy at the same time was .heehtblachopblapingblaboardbla.
-he SCREAMED "URE BEAUTIFUL!!!" before he went offline. he's sweet. =)
toodles. im relleh tired.
Friday, September 02, 2005
killing time in the computer lab by blogging. 1/2 was too fast in learning. so we got a reward of surfing the net for 1 whole hour. and we shouted WE LOVE MISS SRI as a united class. -_-''
atik is finally VERY HAPPY with what she has now. a beloved guy by her side to love her and bring her sweet and CHUBBY memories. =)
between a skinhead and a skimmer. WHICH WOULD YOU CHOOSE? please send your answers to the SURIYANI's TAGBOARD. =D
-some people have given me a couple of answers. and they chose SKIMMER. skimmer is harmless compared to skinhead, you know.
GOOD LUCK TO KUKU BESTFREN WHO'S DOING HIS CHEM PRAC TODAY! woot.
both of them are waiting for me. sighs.
im blogging for the sake of blogging. i no longer have the mood to blog. cause i haven eaten. HOW SAD IS THAT? bahh.
ohwells. rawk on ppl. lyk how me and josie rawk togeder. =)
Thursday, September 01, 2005
im f-king angered up this morning. it's when you see vulgarities shooting out, that shows how pissed off i am. SHE stole my skin. GRR. ohwells. that didnt bother me that much. anyway, i never put any RESERVED sign on it. so yeah. get it over suriyani. but man, another thing. isnt she showing OBVIOUS and CLEAR signs of obsession over a guy. get it over gurl. seriously. guys arent everything. dont mind me. but im not the onli one feeling this way. we dont stop you. go ahead. but we cant bear you to get hurt eventually. sorry. please. think about it. we care for you. and we hope the best for you.
got over it though after talking to besty. its not worth it lah. SHE is still my friend who i care for. i still love her. so forget it. let's BE HAPPY. cheers.
acers day was FUN FUN FUN FUN! dance dance dance! woohoo. and amirah laughed at my rolling step. grr. and syahidah never fails to step on my feet. i love the dance !!! woot! in fact. im dancing while im blogging. =))
i love my two pri school besties. went back to grps with vincent. that cute and handsome guy. -faints. zheng han was jealous. *blueks.* i miss my ex-classmaes though. and cikgu rupiah is still very cute. hee. and that blardy asri and fareezz never fail to tease me with hafiz. anyway. hafiz is tall now. he used to be shorter denn me. now he shot up man. after venting out feelings of missing each other with them and teachers, went to hang out with ain and azlin. frm 3 to 5. tsk tsk. kawan lamer. lepak tak lepas. =)
teacher's day concert is VERY cool. they are creative lah. very. and cikgu asnida and shahid were cutee. esp. cikgu asnida. with those high socks. and umbrellas. the tissue box. GREAT WORK PEOPLE. RAWK ON. TEACHERS TOO!
i love watching little kids fighting over stupid things at the playground. =)
toodles lah. i know im slow at blogging.
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
i shall talk alot today. ALOT. since yesterdae was a failure.
i was sick. super sick. i came to skool with a choked-up nose. andd saiful and the others thot i wore eyeliner. that explains the black lining on my eye. but HELL NO la. i wont use eyeliner when i go to school. must be the insufficient but sufficient sleep last night. so i rubbed and RUBBED real hard with tissues. so it turned from black to red. =) with all that sniffing and rubbing my eyes with tissues, somebody thot i was CRYING. bahh.
and during common test, i used up almost one whole packet of tissue papers. so it was there, on the table, piling up. =). common test was fine lah. it was not so bad.
bestfren was wacky today. whenever he sees me, he'll start waving. LOL. sewel. and the weird thing is, it's a MUST for his friends to turn along and look at me when he waves at me. haa. what's with them anyway. im just his bestfren and he's just my bestfren. =DD
things are getting real okay between me and saiful. he's great lah. especially the part where things go haywire for rafiq. and we just sit there and laugh at rafiq. haha. anyway. RAFIQ IS A BIG MEANIE. he made shaz cried for the second time. izzit a daily routine for him to make shaz cry every day. tsk tsk. yes. its great to hear you admit, "yarlarh. IM EVIL LAH." glad you know that. i mean what are you, man? so what if you have a higher authority than shaz? shaz is trying her very best to maintain the class. she's still new lah dude. grr. RAFIQ IS MEAN! lol.
and yes. saiful is SPASTIC. =))
i dont have anything for you anymore. please. dont do this to me. it's freaking me out sumhow.
arr. mebbe i wont talk ALOT todae. im very sick. SICK. grrh. get well soon, bestfren. and get well soon to other random ppl who are sick too. =)
these are my BEAUTIFUL EYES. i just gorged them out. and it turned out this way. how sad. im tired. and im sick. SICK yet again. oh suriyani, ure prone to illnesses, arent you.
i was in a silent mood this morning. and atika got real worried. dont worry. my condition is not as bad as you think. malas lah nak bobal banyak-banyak. but bounced back to my usual and cocky self after skool. and man. i was relleh out of my usual self lah. *you gurls noe it lah*.
i dont relleh feel like blogging. im feeling real bad now.
Saturday, August 27, 2005
i relleh relleh feel superr-dee-uperr tired.
now i have to complete 8 chapters of madrasah work. and everything is due tomoro. damn. ustazahs are cruel. MEAN. and they expect us to complete chapters that we have not even learnt? are they gong gong or WHAT? i have to ring nabilahh sewel up to remind her about this piling homework. and the wallet she promised me. gagaga. im still waiting, gurl!
and i suddenly realised how dead my blogg has been. and the lastest entry before this was written by dear kuku bestfren. i dont know what's with me. i really wanted to blog. but once i reach the page. i just feel all lazy again.
and lately, i have been very angry with saiful as he gets on my freaking nerves. grr.
I WANT TO KILL YOU AT TIMES, SAIFUL. he dont care what he says to me. he even hit me on the head with sumting which was made of *STEEL*. and great. now i supposed its swollen. damn. he scold me vulgars and stuff. BABI lah. tengok muker celaka lah. he teases me like no one's business. he doesnt even say a simple sorry. i feel so upset saiful. =(
things are getting gd between me and sum ppl lah. like chopping board. and shazzy. we are no longer at awkward situations. -double smiles. but things are not so gd between me and that particular him. its lyk. arghh. i dont want to care animore lah.
sis is going away for P5 camp on mon. and she's bringing all lame stuff along. like dolls and whatever lah. bahh. you are so childish. and gurlish. DOLLS to camp? eww. get a life lah sis. she's going away for 3 days and 2 nights. just hope she'll enjoy it lah. coz' i THINK i enjoyed mine when i had it.
crab-eating is FUN FUN FUN!. haa. i make a good crab-eater for a beginner. its so rare for mum to cook crabs. this is the firz time this year. lol. its nice lah.
damn. i relleh nid time-out. I HAVE TO GO OUT TO SOMEWHERE. to the toilet bowl is what my mum owaes say. -_-''.
finally. mission accomplished. *BANG!
Thursday, August 25, 2005
Okay, lets see... This particular entry will definitely be different from all the recent posts. Cause its not written by Suriyani. Yani sort of gave me the honours to write an entry in her blog. I guess shes busy or something, but doesnt want to disappoint her fans out there, reading her blog. So maybe thats why she told ME to write her an entry. Cool, huh?
Well, a little introduction. Im her Advisor a.k.a. guardian angel a.k.a. kuku best friend. (Yeah, the one who tags as "ur advisor".) LOL. And I'm supposed to blog about today. As in MY point of view of what happened during to HER during HER today. LOL. Well, I guess I better start writing. (lol, first time doing an entry. Im SOO gonna love this. =B)
So, let's see... It started off as a normal day. I mean the usual routine. Me online, then she comes online. Then me waiting for her to say "hi" or "hello". for a change, cause usually, it's me who says the first "hi" or "hello". Her first nick was something like "I miss you the way you miss me". Man, that straight away brought me to thinking of MY someone. LOL. Anyways, I told her that the feeling of missing someone is nice. And yeah, she agreed. Bet you all do. =)
You all must be wondering whos the person she misses so much. Im not sure if shes going to let me do this... But heck. I'm doing it. Muahaha to you Yani. So yeah, this guy (who shall be refered to "he" henceforth) knew Yani some time way back. He's my age now. Things went well, and they fell for each other too. Cool huh? He was one of the only guys she was really close to at that point of time. Something came up, and they had to stop seeing each other.
Something like the guy's teacher saying Yani is too young for him or something. Like WTF right? (lol, sorry for the language people. Hehs.) So yeah, time went by and they lost contact.
Then recently, they got to "find" each other again, as in resume contact (if that's the right way to put it). You guys know one of Yanis recent entries? The one with CANT WAIT FOR TOMORROW? Yeah, that one. She meant that she was going to school with that guy. Don't get me wrong here, the guy isn't from our school. Lol, God knows what will happen if the guy is. So yeah, its natural for one to feel his or her feelings rekindling when meeting an old flame (as Yani puts it, though they never went steady, the guy was just very close to her. call it her special someone), especially if they had feelings for one another. And yeah, she started missing the sweet times both of them had together (God knows what she did with him. LOL, I'm not saying anything here. It was meant to be a joke! Haha.) The guy even recollected the times with her. And the thing is, the guy said he didn't have any feelings for her. Blardy bugger...
Shitty don't you think? Well, first, I didn't know anything was wrong. Until her nick was kind of weird. Something like "its all an illusion" and "...". I think you all get it. LOL. So yeah, she told me he told her he had no feelings for her. And yeah, I know it hurts, what more for her experiencing it.
Imagine, someone you trusted so much, loved so much, were to leave your life. And yeah, you got over it. Took you months to do it. Then he or she comes back into your life. Only to bring back your memories, and then leaves again. Sucks doesn't it?
lol, I think I better end here... This thing is kinda getting too long... Just want to tell all her friends out there one thing: support her. =)
I hope I get to do this again. Hehs. And yeah, comments please. =)
.If anyone broke my heart, Id repaint my room jet black whilst listening to some murder ballads.
.Cross my heart and hope to die.
Not very vampiric, but I mean it.
It should be Stake my heart and hope to live.
.What do polite vampires say when you give them something?
YOU SUCK?
NO. Fang you.
.Clowns are famous for being happy on the outside and terribly miserable inside.
im tired. emotionally and physically. dang!
kuku bestfren lost his sense of kuku-ness for today.
and i feel so helpless for i could not lift him up to the kuku zone at all.
feel so helpless for not being able to help him much.
gotta MUG for common test.
finish up my maths study grp assignment.
do my english journal and newspaper article.
im just waiting for his answer. =)
CANT WAIT FOR TOMORO.
random .
.Roid?
Yes. Roid, as in Asteroid.
Not Roid as in paranoid?
That is my evil twin.
Not Roid as in haemorrhoid?
That is the clone of my evil twin.
.These are intergalactic nanostrings planted by my evil twin Paranoid. When they land on your face they burrow into your cheerks and breed maggots that can eat you up in five minutes. -cheese strings. *HEE.
.Are you OK?
I'm fine. I couldn't look him in the eyes. If I did I would break down. Then he would know for sure I was a deranged creature. There was only one person who would've understood how I was feeling.
that was total random-ness. picked those out from a book i was reading. fallout. nice book. nice random-ly qoutes.
i have chosen to think positive. guys hurt me and shoot me down. but think on the brite side. i have to thank them for the good memories we created together. the good memories will be etched in my mind no matter what happens.
thank you didie. though thru all that lies. thru all that malu-malu acts you always put up. thru all that silence on the phones and on journeys to nowhere. those nerve-wrecking moments u made me suffer. but i still thank you for those gd memories. i still hold tight to them.
thank you salihin. we made that lil' sacrifice. i miss those sweet memories. those moments when i always denied ure compliments. the times we spent on the phone. ure cockiness mixing chilli sauce with whipped potato and asking me to eat with you. those soccer moments. i relleh thank you. with those gd memories, im still able to stand on both my feets and continue my life.
and yes. shazwin. i may have done you wrong. i may have hurt you. but im relleh sorry. i hate to think abt those bad times. but i still have those gd moments to keep with me.
ahhh. how much i love my gd memories.
there's gd memories with sewel bestfren. those-alike-but-weird-habits we share. everything lah. love it to bones. =D
there's gd memories with chopping board. well. im sorry if i did freak you out. we are still friends arent we? can we pretend nth happened. i dont wish to lose u as a fren. =)
there's crappy memories with mister ful. those ketawe-rabak-bersama-sama times. LOL.
that's all. i love my GOOD memories.
Saturday, August 20, 2005
damn. AKU BINGIT DAN BINGUNG. i dont wanna fall into that trap. i fear rejection. i dunnoe why. but i just do.
saiful and atik are so sweet to play for us the cornet. and they're a good couple who plays the cornet WELL. lol.
i love the class photos. atik said i look lyk an elf. LOL.
thank you kuku. for you-know. i dont think you know. coz' i dunnoe. HEE!
and you so kukulah. asik2 call me GILER. doinks.
this entry is super shawt.
sighs. during EMAS just now. i was on the verge of tears. thinking how much i will miss my seniors. my sec 4 and 5 seniors. they relleh made an impact in my life. they were the ones who guided me when i was still a blur-blur kid. i miss and WILL miss kuku bestfren when kuku graduates. you know i'll cry pails and buckets. i miss and WILL miss blood donor. he's real sweet. i miss kak marsila and kak wani for their craps during np while in attempt to make training the best of the best. i miss all the staffs and sec 4 ncos for their guidance and crappy scoldings-yg-tk-menjadi-at-times. i miss and WILL miss kak norsiah. the super cute and super kudut girl. im her loved counsellor tau! i will miss my beloved sec 4 and sec 5 seniors. -crys.
what more after hearing lyssyah abt ALL the sec 4s and 5s are gonna graduate this year and there wont be any sec 5 next year. wth. tidakkk. when kuku and blood donor goes. kak nor, kak wani and ppl go. im left with ferlynna. oh please. dont take her away. she's my only hope. sighs. i hated upper sec seniors ONCE. coz' i thot they might think sec 1s are gullible and immatured. grr. but i love them loads. =(
I MAKE THE BEST MUFFINS!!! woot. haha. mr faisal said pair 1 was the best who did the best muffins during home econs. pair 1 is SURIYANI and ATIQAH!! *applause* im starting to love home econs to the coree. and my muffins rawk. in just 10 minutes, muffins sudah habis dijual. hehs.
shazzy is gong gong. plus blur sotong. grr.
syafinah. jangan putus ngan aku lah. aku masih sayangkan kau. jangan putus ngan aku. pleaseee.
lol.
dahlah bye!
Thursday, August 18, 2005
i freaking miss blood donor. sighs. and kuku bestfren. each day, we tend to talk lesser. well. i understand. THEY are having their O'level exams, my dear suriyani. O'LEVEL. it's the big thing. i just wish they would pass their O'levels with flying fireworks lah. =D
i get real paranoid when im alone.
forget abt the horrid thing that happened today. it suck.
EVERYTHING IS BORING!
grr. this is what happened when you miss alot of people.
`blood donor.
`cikgu iskandar.
`cikgu rupiah.
`azlin.
`supernana.
`hafiz acs.
`salihin.
`rashidie.
sighs. there's more. but too much to list it out.
i was just thinking. how badly i will miss my sec 4 seniors+1 sec 5 senior when they graduate. grr.
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
talking to her makes me all pessimistic and start thinking about the horrid past.
talking to both him and HIM makes me jump back to square one, being optimistic.
i shant write so much. i relleh cant get my fingers to type it all. so what happened was:
`had stomach cramp and it felt as if someone stabbed right through a couple of times.
`almost didnt want to come to school because of the horrid cramp. but ohwells. still came cause by nature im a good girl and wont miss school. and i have maths common test.
`maths common test was fairly okay. i even counted the minimum marks i would lose. 12. lucky number. NOT.
`geog was superr cute lah. doing grpwork with caleb is notorious but still FUN. but he's always mimicking me. GRR.
`i am an EXCELLENT teacher. *APPLAUSE* i taught my lil elves about geothermal and solar energy during sci. all of them say i was a very gd teacher. except for saiful. bloody.
`i suck at maths grpwork. full stop.
`and now the whole world knows i have this weird-looking auntie purse. even the teacher. and sheesh. whoever would have taken 5 ipods at one go. to end up a spotcheck for all of us.
`ima and lyssyah are good crappers to crap with. =D
`my bleeding lip. sobs. it just kaboom. BLEED. the heat like what bestfren said.
`and i pondered and still pondering over what alyssyah said to me. "HE LIKES YOU SURIYANI." doinks. nono lyssyah. he's just sweet. mebbe to everyone. not only me. yeah. not only me, it's everyone. but. ahh. shut it.
`refer to the firz sentnece of the entry. =(
`dang! i love my chopping board aka blood donor. KUKU BESTFREN! and yelar, saiful si bengap tu. lol.
pointforms rawks at times.
the events today will be in an arranged order. thank you. =))
after all those vulgars you threw at me, now ure asking for a so called i-need-you-back patch-up. dang! one thing. you LIED to me okay. you said you onli had 4 ex. and what? it appeared you had 7? ure a liar. and u said the lesser u haf, the more sincere u are. so this means ure not THAT sincere? doinks. and ure hoping a YES? i know there's always chances given. but look what you did okay. im a girl with my own passionate feelings. ahhh. *feeling feeling sikit lah. LOL.*
and ms ridz caught me with LOOSE socks that hung low below the ankle when it din. grr. nemind. NEMIND.
and tengkiu kuku bestfren for ure service in printing. will look you up in future times if my computer chooses to be INKLESS again. =))
during sci period, saiful, lyssyah and i CRAPPED alot. doinks. sampai ijabkabul sumer. lol. we were celebrating te moments of mrs ng's absence. =))
i sat one corner. being anti-social. not mixing ard. while they ate their lunch. i possibly COULDN'T eat lunch. but ohwells. dapat pahala! then, i THINK i fell asleep. and dreamt that i went up to the watercooler and drank lots and lots of water. lalala. see how desperate i was. how weak i was. that explains my silence. so u got the answer lyssyah. =))
out we went. for hmt. i was bored you see. real bored. walking as the firz person as though i was leading. and i saw this plastic bag. this white plastic bag. I WAS BORED FOR GOODNESS SAKE. so i kicked it. kick kick. suddenly. *ploop*. sumting brownish orangey yucky nauseating freaky look thing landed at my shoes. EWWWWW. i completely thot it was just wet soil. but the others RELLEH freaked out. "EEEEE. SURIYANI TENDANG TAIK." sheesh. i did? grr. so i took sum water frm syahidah's bottle and tissues to clean it. eww. shit. shit. SHIT? oh man. and they were all laughing laughing. seriously, i was relleh bored. that's why i kicked it. BORED, you see.
but i was glad i did so. coz' i lifted avrione into the happy mood. syafinah was a bit down. and she was the firz one to relleh crack her stomach. aww. i relleh would be willing to kick more shits if i could make everyone laugh their heads off again like just noww. i relleh enjoyed it. and one more thing. i discovered. ALYSSYAH TAKOT TAIK. wahahaha. i kept going near her. and she kept freaking out. LOL. soo the moral of the story *as said by saiful*.
JANGAN SIMPAN TAIK DALAM PLASTIK BAG. aka DONT KEEP SHIT IN PLASTIC BAGS. =DDD
i guess. that's all? so bye. *crying pails and buckets*
its relleh hearthbreaking to know that you often experience STM at the age of 13. sighs. WHAT HOMEWORKS DO I HAVE FOR GOODNESS SAKE? grr. i hate this alot. where i forget stuff almost everytime. GRR.
awww. kak nor and her prince look so cute togeda. ahh. its nice to be her. so cute. so pretty. while im NOT. grr.
andd im getting that CD frm kuku bestfren! woots!
and yes. guys like him are a total dumbass. wait. not kuku bestfren. HIM. the KPALA BOTAK. bang bang.
i cant blogg much. sumbodi's rushing for the comp. blargh.
appreciate ure loved ones. =)
okay let's blog it. LOL.
im a VERY GOOD writer, ritee? woots! now i feel so pumped up to write more stories. well. dont worry. just wait for my cerpen. JUST WAIT. i know some people are just so excited to see it. awww. *winks*
officially not attached. -smiles. but still. ARGHH. shant say it here. some people do know abt it.
chopping board is real nice with his words. MAY MY TROUBLES WASH TO THE SEA. ahh. he says i look alike as kak nad. lol. but im still not as georgeous as her. she's WHOAH.
but dun worry. KUKU BESTFREN STILL RAWK OKAY!!!.
oh dots. please go away. you're making me freaking out.
oh yeah. i totally screwed up during home econs on thurs. and during npcc on fri. grr. but my fun fries rawk. everyone says so. and saiful is dirty. he dropped the fries on the floor before frying. and picked it up and put it in the saucepan to fry it. ewww. but it's only sum lah. he picked out the clean ones to let me eat. +). and i made so many mistakes compared to other days during np. but ohwells. skrg sayer da pandai. hentakmajucepatjalanberhenti. woots!
and yeahh. suddenly rmbr. had emas on thurs. it was simply thumbs-up!. i asked a lot of question. and cikgu liked it. and cikgu asked us abt our ambitions. and i said i wanna be a housewife instead. and he said BAGUS. being a housewife is definitely tougher den being a doctor or a teacher. no leave tau. BLUEKS. so i have the best ambition. +)
oklarh. BANG. BYE!
Saturday, August 13, 2005
START BLOGGING SURIYANI. NOW NOW!!! grr. this is relleh getting on my nerves. 1 hr ago. it was a blank entry. 1 hr later. still a blank entry! nemind. let's take it slow.
changed blog url. my blogg has been invaded. has been intervened! bloggku sudah menjadi bahan iri hati orang lain! grr. what is happening to the world man! sheesh.
my english is getting super kuku. especially when im talking to people. sheesh.
dang! sorry. but i have no idea what else to type/blogg/talk about. so here it ends.
*grr. this is super shawt*
*i didnt want to write the sorrow im going thru. it's just too hard for me to express it*
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
i have turned into a serious character at home. i hardly smile. neither laugh. well, if i did so. it was done alone in a room. i scold myself and give a you-are-pissing-me-off look to my sisters at home. my parents give me that stern look whenever i try to look back and look at them. and sometimes i often have the urge to burst into tears thinking how bad the situation is and how bad i wanna change it.
sighs. is this even home to me?
now, i drown myself endlessly doing my friggin homeworks. and doing paper-filing. clearing up avri single rubbish i find in my beloved torn and tattered file. getting shot down by avri single hurtful words the people in the house might say. afraid to pick up the phone and cry out to anyone. i tried looking for my dear friends who were always there to hold me up there. but too bad. they were all too busy to bother about me. sighs.
conversation with kuku bestfren was short.
ndp this year SUNGGUH TIDAK happening.
one thing, i was happy about was that. im super prolly friends with hafiz. we used to bicker ALOT in the past. he even hated me once. in primary skool. all because of rumours about him liking me. so he got fustrated and owaes find faults with me. cikgu even got the nerves to always put him together with me during projects. and till just now. he cried out avriting to me. abt all the rumours he had to hear. about him liking 5 ghurls at the same time. he onli lyk one. the mgs gurl. and i talked to him gently. despite all those vulgar he shot me with. till he finally said i am a trustworthy friend. -smiles. that is all i wanted ever. he's not soo bad afterall. =D.
i wanna get a new image. lol. your suggestions are always welcomed. =)
bang bang. KERANA PERCAYAKAN SHAZWIN. TERCETUS REVOLUSI INI. TAPI IRONINYA, CINTA KITA TAK JADI.
lol. that was cool. i hate boys. boys who are boyfriends to ME. doinks. BUT i dont hate boys like kuku bestfren and saiful. THEY SUPERR RAWKK MY WERLD.
was i being petty? walking out on him just like that? eyy. but still. he shud have chase after me. or at least give me a call or sms or sumting to say sorry or wateva. but ohwells. i wanna let go. im half-hearted. my ghurls are jealous and upset all because i have a beau. and they dont have. WTH! pure utter crap. grr. and fatimah esp. was upset todaee. then terbawak-bawak sampai kat syaf. till syaf sounded as if she dont have the mood to talk to me. grr.
ndp celebration sungguh tidak HAPPENING. lol. and i cant believe i got my semangat to move my body and wave along while singing the song. he gave me that encouragement while the others gave me the discouragement. LOL. and whenn mr brando tan got up to the stage, the band ppl stood up. and saiful was OVER. he stood up AND jumped. hehs. funny lah.
i do not want to talk about the rest. coz' they don't seem impt to me. so. here it ends. =)
sheesh. i have never been so forgetful. SIGHS. im not getting senile dementia at the age of 13, AM I?
kuku bestfren is VERY kuku todayy. he craps alot. TODAY. and im a good eng rep. and so is bestfren. he say kuku no.1 GILER. I SAY kuku no.4 LAGI GILER. eyy bestfren. i was just thinking. we should give each other sumting on our annual anniversary. LOL. that was for fun though.
"i love you" is an 8-letter phrase, and so is "BULLSHIT". shasha. so TRUE. love is acid. acid is love? lol.
darl is gonna bring me out for movie tomoro. CHARLIE AND THE CHOCHOLATE FACTORY HERE I COME. lol. for once, i am childish. but who cares. a lot of 13-year-olds are waiting for that movie. so yeah. -smiles.
i crave for chocolate and chicken. lol.
i miss salihin. i miss rashidie. i miss saiful. i miss ashraff. sighs. WAIT. i miss them as A CLOSE FREN. =D.
arr. these are definitely not the things i forgotten. they are a NEW thing. grr.
i hate eating banana fritters which are NOT crispy. and esp. when it is hard and obviously not soft. lol.
OH SHIT OH SHIT. damn. i forgot what i wanna blog about. grr.
my toenails are a bunch of good-looking-AND-freaky thing.
LOL. that was random. for all you know, it maybe TRUE.
pocongs are cutee when they dance. haha. just like the one in pontianak menjerit. wakaka. watched that at syafinah's housee while having lunch before going to mcritchie for X-country yesterdaee. and the siam laydee was SO like amirah. hehex. and the way fatimah laughs at the dancing pocong was waee too cutee. haha.
mrs lim is very open-minded. she told the ghurls in our class to hook up those intellectual guys quickly. NOW. dump those who are just too lousy. she even talked about PILLS. aka condoms i guess. LOL. or mebbe viagra. hehs. it was geog lesson. in the middle of the lesson she talked abt those stuff. hehs. i was feeling helplessly sleepy during dat lesson. but she awakened me up by talking abt unrelated stuff. hehs.
the slope at mcritchie is damn steep. how i wish i could just roll UP the slope. LOL. thank you syafinah for running with me and not letting me give up and continue all the wae. and yes of course, the teachers and my sec 2 np seniors. =)
i was happy for i finished the race. so much more EARLIER den the 1/8 ghurls. BLUEKS. though i din get top 40. who cares. i WON. hehs. ritee syafinah?
but nevertheless, i cried. it was tears of overwhelmness. delphine had asthma attack and her leg got a sudden cramp. caleb, being the fastest runner in our class, collapsed and fainted at one of the checkpoints. alyssyah finished the race. but she was relleh relleh weak till the others had to carry her before she collapse. she almost vomitted. sighs. and shafiq frm 1/3 had his leg bleeding profusely. i cried coz' there were so manie causualties. it's so heart-wrecking seeing them in pain. and i saw a bond between syahidah and delphine when syahidah relleh cried saying she din want to lose delphine. aww.
in the end, alyssyah and caleb were getting betta at the end of the dae. and delphine was sent to KKH.
seems like things between me and asraff are getting real good. we talked alot yesterdae. hehs.
arr. nth else to be talked abt after X-country. finallie. i have a sim-card. sis bought it along wif a new hp. she wants the hp so she gave me the number. but she doesnt allow me to sms. ONLY calls. grr. i wanna sms too! hmphh.
im hungry. so shall look for victims to let my hunger fade away. taking care.
Saturday, August 06, 2005
im proud to present THE KUKU CYCLE. produced by ME. edited by me. STAKEHOLDERS: ME and kuku bestfren. =)
kuku person will ALWAYS say kuku stuff that goes down to kuku land then it gets kuku-LY recycled then reused by the kuku person again and the cycle continues.
cool and KUKU. hehs.
sigh. GUYS THESE DAYS. are relleh sick. *pukes*. asking for sex. grr. get a life lah!
I WANT TO BE A PEMBAHAS. after watching the bahas.4pm, i kinda got the semangat to be a pembahas. but sighs. im neva gonna make it. =(
LOVE IS AN ACID. nono. i still tink it's wrong. it's suppose to be LOVE IS ACID.
Thursday, August 04, 2005
i'm loving saiful more and more avridae. AS A CLOSE FREN. =D. he sang songs to me just now during cme lessons. i helped him decorate his palm sticker. which turned out to be NOT so okay. coz' he bloody squeezed out too much correction liquid. hehs. and i was singing percayakan siti. he sang along. so we sang. denn he sang more songs. MORE and MORE. lol. he's nicee.
we even went to hmt togeda. well, of course. with my ghurls. and SERIOUSLY, saiful and atika relleh luk lyk twins. hehs. dun deny, TWINS.
i managed to do well for 2.4 run. phew. even without a teeny weeny bit of particles of food in my stomach. =). 16.39. i know it's not fab. but still. i did well. congrats suriyani. =).
andd kuku. ure not a WIMP. trust me. ure a flexible dude. =D.
tomoro another daee of fasting. =).
i failed my hmt common test. by 3 marks. well, avrione else did. so YAY. fatimah and saiful were born brainboxes. they passed. grr. nemind. it's our first time. there's owaes next time. =D.
i want my blog to be alive like ME. hehs.
so yeah. cheers.
57 entries.
2 days of fasting.
19 days of heart-warming love.
38 days of crapping with kuku advisor aka best fren. LOL.
211 days of memorable times with my GHURLS. hehs.
haha. dat was so kewl. i did a flashback with kuku. and he counted the days. haha. so kuku. LOL.
i hope i'll go so much slimmer in a month's time. LOL.
malas la blog byk2. buang maser. tk berfaedah! LOL.
TODAY.
i cried. in front of dad. for the first time in my life, i tried to stand up for myself and spoke back to dad. all this while, whenever he scolded me with harsh words, i kept quiet. never tried to fight back. but today, i feel the need to voice out my feelings. but i stood up in a gentle waee. sorry if i was rude. but i feel that being a sister. and elder sister, i shud correct what she did. WAS I WRONG? -crys.
den i cried again. while i was watching anak metropolitan. the moment she cried and spoke to her parents about the pain she suffered as a child with an incomplete amount of love compared to her siblings. it happens just like dat. i cried.
lately, i haven been thinking about notorious stuff.
-WHAT IF I SHOPLIFTED.
-WHAT IF I GOT PREGNANT.
-WHAT IS I GOT INVOLVED IN A GANG.
-WHAT IF I WAS ASSAULTED.
-WHAT IF I WAS AN ADOPTED KID.
-WHAT IF I HAD A TERMINAL DISEASE.
sighs. i shudder thinking about this.
new tee. new footwear. new tudung. im so gonna wear it when i go out wif darl. BLUEKS. but still, i never know whether we are going out. so ohwells. nemind. im gonna wear it when.... im out wif my ghurls. muahs. *winks*
soo. i went out with kak todaee. she wanted to buy mum's present. soo. i tagged along. its relleh bin quite sumtime i went out.
soo we went to banquet and ate. sis was grumbling and complaining her stomach is empty and stuff. get a life lah sis. i juz ate. and you want me to eat with you again. but i dont mind. she's forking out. so why nott. hehs.
denn we went to geylang to buy the present. i bought a new pair of footwear and a new tee and a new tudung. all of them match! well of course, look who's wearing it lata! wakaka. denn we went ard the whole geylang to find the perfect gift. and tada! we bought a jubah for mum. blue. elegant. of course. look who chose it. *blush* i tried it on over my clothings. and i think i look okay. the material is super nicee. mum shares almost the same size as me. soo yeah. but im taller. BLUEKS. aniwae. hope mum likes it. =D.
and there's this super hawtie i saw in geylang. sis bought a few blouses at his shop. he smiled at me quite a couple of times. -swoons. and when sis paid him. he said "thank you soo much. ure soo pretty." alermaks. and sis kembang. -_-''. and for all you know, he was trying to say it was ME. haha. forget it suriyani. ure not even pleasant-looking. blargh.
it was still early. soo sis wanted to go orchard. but ended up at cityhall. soo we went to the padang. and watched the fireworks. ahhh. they were *THUMBS-UP*. super fab. i was relleh mesmerized by it. though my heart popped out. it was loud enuff okayy. but still. i love fireworks. =D.
denn we went to eat at sakura. it was YUMMY lah. except for the kai lan. yikes.
finallie time to go home. and we roam ard like stoopid moronic kids. just to find the bus-stop. haha! there's a road block you see. so we had a gruelling time finding it. ANDD. there were soo many mat birus. -swoons. i had 3 of them staring at me. LOL. mebbe i was weird-looking, i guess. hehs. and despite my lethargic-looking face, one mat eye contact me and said hi. WTH. oh tidakk. yikes.
i came back at 12. wth sehh. i relleh thot it was onli 10. hehs.
so a super fab daee. =)
Cute huh? Didn't have a recent picture thought. Uh... Playing with strings WAS my favourite pastime. Okie, let's get along now.
